So long story short my PC got taken over by ransomware that cannot be decrypted so I have lost every single file or resource I have ever had on modding. This would be manageable but my Facebook also got deleted again, and my entire YouTube channel got terminated overnight. The only thing I have left of my mods are whatever is on here and previews on my Flikr. For whatever reason YouTube have refused to give back my YouTube channel which got banned overnight by Russian bots spamming porn links. I received 5 email warnings all in Russian acrylic which I do not speak and could not translate within one hour at 5am while asleep and woke up to the channel being terminated.
Since the PC files were impossible to get back without paying whoever put the ransomware on my PC upwards of 1000 euros I decided to eventually do a hard reset. I can re download the mods themselves but it is the 5 years of my YouTube dedicated to basketball games and tutorials for modding along with my hundreds of GBs of resources and files I had made myself to help with my modding being gone in the space of a day.
Thousands of hours through years of work between these videos and the mods I made being completely wiped in the span of a day when I did absolutely nothing wrong and just had everything taken from me by a real scamming piece of shit has killed my passion for ever doing YouTube content or making mods ever again. Sorry if this is disappointing to anyone but I suffer from a number of mental illnesses including BPD, PTSD, Severe Anxiety Disorder and severe depression disorder. With substance abuse being extremely common with BPD as living with it is hell I always had modding and youtube to turn to, to distract me and keep me going. Now that it is gone, even the thought of it is enough to trigger severe suicidal thoughts in me, and with my last serious attempt and hospitalization being in November 2019 meaning I have been clean from a near lethal overdose in 16 months I have decided that I just need to move on and leave this all behind for good in order to be able to move on with my life in a healthy way. After this happened I had to be put on anti-psychotics to keep me relaxed until I have moved on but ye unfortunately this is probably the last anyone will hear or see from me.
It sucks that this happened and was out of my control but it was a great few years and I hope my work gave some people a little joy but until all my shit illnesses have fucked off for good the thought of anything related to this will only trigger bad shit.
Adios amigos